Sunday Night Musings

*blows dust off blog*

This has been calling me for some time.  
I have neglected the call.

My mind pushes me to go farther, dig deeper, put it all the way down.
Sometimes I just cannot do it.
I fear the backlash.
I fear what may happen if I unleash what I have been through.

This is just the beginning.

Here we are, 2.5 months into 2017.  I have been on a roller coaster ride that more hills and valleys than most.  I have to admit that I am struggling this semester more than last semester.  I need to stay focused to attain the goal that I have for myself.  I can't stop now.  I have to push forward.  

The question since January 20th is: What in the entire hell just happened in America?!?!  I mean, President Flaming Cheeto 45 is on a mission to make America white again.  Everyone that he has appointed on his cabinet either wants to do away with the department that they hold, or they have NO DAMN IDEA what they're doing.  

Jesse Williams Speech from the BET Awards

Here is the speech that has the world talking, and Justin Timberlake regretting that he opened his mouth on Twitter.

Peace peace. Thank you, Debra. Thank you, BET. Thank you Nate Parker, Harry and Debbie Allen for participating in that .

Before we get into it, I just want to say I brought my parents out tonight. I just want to thank them for being here, for teaching me to focus on comprehension over career, and that they make sure I learn what the schools were afraid to teach us. And also thank my amazing wife for changing my life.

Now, this award – this is not for me. This is for the real organizers all over the country – the activists, the civil rights attorneys, the struggling parents, the families, the teachers, the students that are realizing that a system built to divide and impoverish and destroy us cannot stand if we do.

It’s kind of basic mathematics – the more we learn about who we are and how we got here, the more we will mobilize.

Now, this is also in particular for the black women in particular who have spent their lifetimes dedicated to nurturing everyone before themselves. We can and will do better for you.

Now, what we’ve been doing is looking at the data and we know that police somehow manage to deescalate, disarm and not kill white people everyday. So what’s going to happen is we are going to have equal rights and justice in our own country or we will restructure their function and ours.

Now… I got more y’all – yesterday would have been young Tamir Rice’s 14th birthday so I don’t want to hear anymore about how far we’ve come when paid public servants can pull a drive-by on 12 year old playing alone in the park in broad daylight, killing him on television and then going home to make a sandwich. Tell Rekia Boyd how it’s so much better than it is to live in 2012 than it is to live in 1612 or 1712. Tell that toEric Garner. Tell that to Sandra Bland. Tell that to Dorian Hunt.

Now the thing is, though, all of us in here getting money – that alone isn’t gonna stop this. Alright, now dedicating our lives, dedicating our lives to getting money just to give it right back for someone’s brand on our body when we spent centuries praying with brands on our bodies, and now we pray to get paid for brands on our bodies.

There has been no war that we have not fought and died on the front lines of. There has been no job we haven’t done. There is no tax they haven’t leveed against us – and we’ve paid all of them. But freedom is somehow always conditional here. “You’re free,” they keep telling us. But she would have been alive if she hadn’t acted so… free.

Now, freedom is always coming in the hereafter, but you know what, though, the hereafter is a hustle. We want it now.

And let’s get a couple things straight, just a little sidenote – the burden of the brutalized is not to comfort the bystander.That’s not our job, alright – stop with all that. If you have a critique for the resistance, for our resistance, then you better have an established record of critique of our oppression. If you have no interest, if you have no interest in equal rights for black people then do not make suggestions to those who do. Sit down.

We’ve been floating this country on credit for centuries, yo, and we’re done watching and waiting while this invention called whiteness uses and abuses us, burying black people out of sight and out of mind while extracting our culture, our dollars, our entertainment like oil – black gold, ghettoizing and demeaning our creations then stealing them, gentrifying our genius and then trying us on like costumes before discarding our bodies like rinds of strange fruit. The thing is though… the thing is that just because we’re magic doesn’t mean we’re not real.

Thank you.

News from the street....

Below is my 1 cent op-ed for the week.....

The Freddie Gray case....
Why is it I am not surprised that NO ONE.... and I mean NO..DAMN..BODY.. has been convicted in the Freddy Gray murder case.  Did Mosby not have a solid case against anyone?!?!  You have 6 police officers that knew of the injuries to this man and three of them got off.  The judge is now saying that with the "malicious prosecution" from Mosby, that ll of them will get off.  Say word?!

The Gray family needs justice.  The city of Baltimore needs justice and peace.  Mosby really need to find another strategy if she is going to get any conviction for Freddie Gray.

Meanwhile, in the Legion of Doom.... I mean the US Capitol....
I need for Rep. Charles Rangel to step all... the...way...down.  This common sense reject actually said that law abiding citizens should not have to buy a gun.  Really fool?!?!  There are people of the FBI Watch list that can get an AR-15 military style assault weapon and shoot up a nightclub.  How hard is it for some common sense legislation that actually says the following:

• If you are on the FBI watch list, no gun for you period.  However, this requires an overhaul of this list.  Got a fix for that too.  Find 20 angry women and I will guarantee you that it will be cleaned up in no time.  When provoked, we are better in finding out information better than all of the best agents out at Quantico combined.
• This background check should be way better than the one that you use to get a secret clearance with the federal government.
• You want a handgun, take a class from the NRA or a licensed trainer.  Sorry DC residents, the MPD will not fund a trainer for the public.  If this has changed, please let me know.

The Upcoming Presidential election....

I am voting for the US to be single this year. We need to find ourselves as a nation after us breaking up with President Obama.

No woodland creatures or short bus rejects were harmed in the writing of this blog.  

bitch I'm back... Not by poplar demand....

Well I have decided after wrestling with my inner demons and appeasing them with cheesecake and ice cream, that I will bring my controversial blog back from the land where they film The Walking Dead.

My original blog, The Homewrecker, was an outlet for me to dispel my frustrations with my ex-husband, my divorce, and my ups and down with love and relationship.

So let's start from the beginning.....

• I was born and raised in DC
• My old stomping grounds is Capital Hill/Barracks Row
• I am a mother, sister, aunt, godmother, and great auntie
• I am a Hobby-entrepreneur trying to make the leap of faith.
• I try to spread knowledge

Now, on to the fuckery......

Thank you,

Management

ratchet ghetto bitch ass 'nigga' right here

*cues up Another One Bites the Dust*
 ... and another one wants to feel my wrath... 
Now here is a ratchet ghetto bitch ass 'nigga' right here... Ladies and Gentlemen, meet Lamont Brooks.

This 'I am Tarzan, you Jane' Mitt Romney's new running mate short bus reject here decided to come and make an apperace on my page after I posted about how guys send me unwanted random pics of their dicks. First you accuse me of being gay... strike one ninja.

 Can somebody tell me how did the statement that I posted makes me gay?!?!

To all the fellas on my page, 

 I'm sorry fellas.... 
 Sending me random, unwanted pictures of your dick is NOT A TURN ON!! It is a TURN OFF!!! 

 Thank you, 
Management 

 Point it out to me please? I'll wait.... Still waiting.....

 Then when I say that I am bi, and that men should show restraint, he told me to turn gay because NO MAN is going to meet my demands.

 His actual response:
Then you want a fag. NO REAL MAN GOES BY WHAT YOU WANT......lol. If that's what you want you need a bitch as nigga. YOU HAVE LIFE FUCKED UP

 That's strike 2 nigga!!! Now I'm thinking, did this Diary Of a Wimpy Kid movie reject get in his damn feelings because I'm a fucking grown ass woman, I demand my respect, and random dick pics is so unappealing to me. I would rather have the tool of procreation in front of me, and if I want a pic, I will take one of it myself. Fuck it, I am a photographer, and this is my choice. 

But let's get to the last statement. WAYMENT!! I have life fucked up?!?! Well hell, he dont know me at all! First of all, this mofo LIVES OVERSEAS so I can only assume that he is in the military. If he is, please give him a soap party Full Metal Jacket style, then have a ladyboy from Bangkok love him long time. Then again, after the gay comment, he might like that shit *giggling* After that happens to your ass, then talk to me about life being fucked up, because karma is a bitch!!  Secondly, I am going to assume that you are in the closet because I will not allow NO ONE on my page to use ANY demeaning language, whether intentional or unintentional. It's bad enough as it is that you called me gay (which I don't give 2 shits about) but don't take your 'frustrations' of the female race out on my page.  The last time I checked, this ain't 1965, and my name ain't June Cleaver.

 Then he wants to rub it in (I guess) by sending me a private message, saying the EXACT SAME THING!! But before I can respond, he went out in true ghetto bitch ass nigga mode... he deleted and blocked me! Yes I said it... total bitch ass move!!! I laughed until I cried. I know my coworkers think I went nuts. That nigga should be glad that I didn't have a chance to respond. The motherfucker must have felt the flames from the 10th circle of hell and thought he could escape. Yeah he escaped alright... to the 12th circle which is my blog.

*straps up my 3" leather boots and points to the floor*

Kneel before Storm!! Respect this Dominant Queen!

... and the craziness continues.... "rachet horror stories from hell".

I just want to thank everyone for the messages and the well wishes that I received in the past few days.  It was satisfying that people actually paid attention.  In turn, along with the messages of "screw him", all of these stories are coming to light.  I actually will start calling them "rachet horror stories from hell". 

 

Ok let’s start with the ‘common stories’.  A lot of women came back to me with stories of how he constantly hits them up online via Facebook Messenger for a chance to play with them at an event.  Most women thought that he was harmless, but as time went on, his desperation for a relationship started to rear its ugly head.   But for some of you, it was lifestyle horror at its finest.  These stories includes:

 

-          Him getting mad at women at a party because they are not attracted to him and refuses to play with him.

-          Becoming emotional because “no one wanted to play” with him

-          Hitting people up asking for money to help out on an event (that was cancelled) or to help out on his bills that he has at home

-          Asking people can they stay at their home for a few days

-          His wife calling women asking them who they are.

-          When asked, acts like he knows NOTHING about what is going on. 

 

I will have to admit, one person did come forward and tell me about his partying days in New York.  According to this story, he refused to give money back to a person that came to a hotel party.  When he attempted to grow a set of balls and tried to talk trash to the guy, he pulled out his NY Marshall badge and inadvertently flashed his gun.  Well,  you know what came next – the emotional heap of wuss that he is known of becoming.  No wonder his

 

As I laugh and shake my head, I can only be reminded of the craziness and drama that surrounds him.  As one of my friends put it, he acts like nothing has happened, will still posts in groups, and then will start over with another group and run that into the ground just like the last 2 that he had. 

 

 

STAY AWAY FROM THIS MAN!!!

You know, I don't normally put my sex life out on front street for all the world to see. But I have to come out of the Matrix and shed light on this ... ahem... the cheap-ass, lying-ass, greedy-ass, thirsty-ass, more emotional than Sybil, jealous-ass (whooshah) so-called waste of male species named Marvin Whittle.
I'm sorry.. he goes by several names.. Marvin, Maxwell Damage, Titanium Tonguebringer... whatever he wants to call himself today. He is a mockery of the lifestyle and I will tell ANYONE to steer clear of him.
I could tell you about how he got caught in his own web of lies on Monday.  Here is his picture:

I could tell you about how he lied on my Baltimore peeps that he was harassed by them.  That story about my birthday?!?! I didn't want his married ass and he knew that there was no snowball chance in the 7th circle of hell that I would EVER date his ass.  He knew my position.. I am the only one not your option.  Besides, I need a minimum of 7" of dick, not 7cm that can STAY HARD.  To add insult to injury, I  got strep throat within 48 hours of coming back from NYC. Now I'm hearing that he made tracks to Deep Creek that weekend with an ex-girlfriend of his.


By the way, whosoever dick pic that he send me claiming that it was him, I apologize because that makes him a tad bit suspect.  Maybe that is wanted to become.


His Memorial day Party?!?!  How about this emotional piece of shit started crying...yes I really do mean crying, passing out on the floor crying buckets of tears because NO ONE wanted to play with him.  You turned me off when you told me that I had to pay HALF on a room, demanded for my BFF to pay $60 for a single male, then you didn't have enough money on your credit card to cover the rooms for the event, and I find out that one of the rooms was thrown in FOR FREE.  NINJA REALLY?!?!  


Once again, I have to apologize to Simone and Paige for the bullshit that he did to you that weekend.


His birthday party?!?!  He basically told everyone that I lived in a house, was cooking food and getting a cake for his birthday.  I said NONE of these things. I live in a 1 bedroom apartment, on the second floor AND I TOLD HIM THIS!!  He in turn invited 32 people, with 27 of them being women that he either wanted to play with, or have played with, and charged them to come to the party so he wouldn't have to shell out any money, and he collected gift cards on top of that.  To top it all off, he caught an attitude because I wanted to play with a guy that I have known WAAAYY longer than him.  


I'm glad that everyone had a good time.


All in all, I felt like I was bait for him to lure women in because he is "safe' to play with.  LIKE HELL HE IS! Every damn week, he was saying that either an ex-girlfriend of his or a female that he was cool with wanted to play with us as a couple.  I am VERY selective with whom I play with, and I need to somewhat KNOW the person before sex is discussed.  I feel used because I felt like he used my kindness for his personal gain, and my status and knowledge of the lifestyle to hook up with women that he didn't have a snowball chance in hell of getting on his own merits.   I treated you like a human being and you walked all over me.  I hope you go to the 10th circle of hell and BURN TO A FUCKING CRISP!!!!


So, on that note, I will tell that... ahem... the cheap-ass, lying-ass, greedy-ass, thirsty-ass, more emotional than Sybil, jealous-ass (whooshah) so-called waste of male species named Marvin Whittle to KISS MY ENTIRE BLACK ASS.